suasana hari raya

*sings* berlalu lah sudah ramadhan sebulan berpuasa... tiba syawal kita rayakan dgn rasa gembira.. anak muda di rantauan semuanye pulang ke desa... ibu dan ayah keriangan bersyukur tak terkira.... :)
we went to Geylang just now... we were in the car from bedok when dar said... "let's go geylang and get u baju raya!" i was like... really geez... no need lah... but he just said let's go only lah..if see anything nice we get ok.. i just smiled. we didnt intend to get any new baju this year... i have 2 baju havent wear yet and he has the same colour baju that he hasnt wear too... so we tot.. no need lah buy this yr.. save a bit... spend more on gizmo
Gizmo was happily sleeping all the way to geylang...well she slept thru our shopping too.. this girl ah v tired coz the whole afternoon she doesnt wanna sleep.. v cranky.. ma said she "nak tukar bulan".. YES! 1st of Dec she'll b 3..not yrs.. mths lah.. my little baby is growing up so fast.. anyway we did get ourselves new baju.. dar bought us matching baju kurung.. purple colour.. kebaya labuh for me... easy to breastfeed and v comfy.. this yr cannot wear tight sexy kebaya but next yr can... *heheh* next yr gizmo will b a yr old... *smiles* anyway... thanks dar ... thank you so much for the baju even thou i didnt ask for one...

shhheeeshhh it's gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!! penat aku type abistu ilang! malas nak retype.. going to bed before gizmo gets up for her next feeding..

hopeless
My dreams have left me.
My eyes can only see the reality,
that has devoured me.
That has taken the love,
the laughter,
the hope,
that once clung to my soul.
It has torn me open
and licked clean my bones
of everything I held dear.
But it left the memory,
so that I may feel the pain,
the heartache,
the emptiness,
with each new face.
So that I may never know again,
what it is to believe,
to love,
to hope,
or to dream.

hey... been 4 days since I login. very tired lah plus lazy. i received news from Ida dat we have school holiday programmes all line up till 5th day raya.. arrrrrrrggg... raya eve also sch.. *sigh* well at least the big boss gave us from 1st to 25th december to enjoy ourselves before heading back to school on Boxing Day for meetings and watever, watever programmes till 30th. I'm praying that I get to teach P2s again.. I believe i'm good for that level. but no.2 said, "I'm sorry Farhana, am session is full. We probably have to put you in the pm session. You submit your form very late." hello?? If I hadn't given birth on the first of september i would have given you your bloody form well before the due date ok! stupid woman! I'm still on maternity leave but I went down to school to submit the stooopid form and my work review ok! what rotten luck i had dat day to have to meet u instead of the boss. If boss hadnt leave for an urgent meeting at HQ...*sigh* but i'm still praying that i get morning session..at least i can rush home by 2.30pm and spend my time with gizmo... oh well...

was looking thru some of my recipe books just now.. cant decide wat to cook on Monday.. mama's bday and i wanna do something special..was thinking of bread pudding w vanilla sauce...*yummy* loonng time never eat that one.. I esp like the one @ Cafe Vienna. wat main dish shall i cook.. mayb i just cook meatball in tomato soup lah... with pasta.. fasting cannot eat too much wait cannot solat tarawih.. ok then set! shall cook that.. must buy minced meat on sunday.. yipppeee.. must be yummy...cant wait!!

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yeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh i'm nemo!!!

Temptation
Temptation comes and blind my eyes
All I see is him;
Should I fall for all he said
My future's so unclear.

His arms open in a cold embrace
Though I try to look away
My eyes return to his face
And upon his sweet smile they stay.

He moves closer
wanting his hug for so long
And with each step the risk is higher
that I would do what is wrong.

I close my eyes to lock him out
Yet I see him in my mind
His eyes misty as the passing cloud
and the lips I longed to find

I open my eyes, the vision goes
Yet there he stand
moving as the river flows
whispering my name now and then.

Then, finally, my lips find his
Euphoria fills my soul
God, please help me
becoz I'm out of control
~*~
miss u love...

Hush, little baby, don't say a word
Mama's gonna buy you a mockin'bird

If that mockin'bird don't sing
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring

If that diamond ring turns brass,
Mama's gonna buy you a looking glass

If that looking glass gets broke
Mama's gonna buy you a billy goat

If that billy goat don't pull,
Mama's gonna buy you a cart and mule

If that cart and mule turn over
Mama's gonna buy you a dog named Rover

If that dog named Rover won't bark
Mama's gonna buy you a horse and cart

If that Horse and Cart fall down,
Then you'll be the sweetest little baby in town
~*~
oh gizmo dont cry my love... i noe u miss baba... i miss him too...

restless...bored... feel like going out for a walk... dar is not home... reservist... *sigh* i miss him.. i didnt send him off to the door jus now coz i was just starting to feed hungry gizmo... hhmm....
i tink i shall take a walk after maghrib.. go to central for awhile... get orange julius or starbucks.. ask iza along lah... alamak! i forgot ..dar took the car... it's ok we take the bus then.. yes..ok set... go central for a walk b back b4 9pm.. yippeee i need the air!

FAT

*aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggg* depressing.......
I feel FAT!! just finished my shower and i looked in the mirror... I need to get rid of the "preggy" fat... *aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggg* need to fit into my 25" Levi's soon! *aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrGGGGGGGGGGG* depressing..... *aaaaaaaaarrrrrrgggggggggggggg* stress!! 2 inches ard the waist... 2inches on each thigh... but i dont wanna lose the bust line... *aaaaaarrrrrggggggg* *sigh* and those small-yet-still-very-visible stretchmarks... i HATE them! even thou Dar said "where got? yes yes! .wah!so many like motocross tracks.." there...there!.... they are there lah!!*aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggg* i'm depresseddddddddddddddddddddd.......

i.d.e.a

hhmm... how to get the image up.. why isn't my ftp working? i wanna upload pitures lah.. why cannot!!! *aaarrrrgggg* I made a nice banner all by myself.. and i wanna upload it up but then cannot! shhheeeshhh.. gonna upload it to my singnet public folder.. nevermind.. i have an idea! I better reset the web password then mayb i can upload the banner n more gizmo's pix. Wish me luck!
Listening to:Bon Jovi-It's my life
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

at last

finally I almost finish revamping my blogskin... not originally mine but i shall try to make my own wen i can find time..(bila tu tak tau lah pasal bz w gizmo). Dar just called. He has to stay in.. so kesian.. i tanya makan apa buka he kata tak sedap ah lauk!!! It's ok dar ... u'll b back 2morrow morning anyway... go back to camp on wednesday.. hhmm.. Gizmo did not sleep much in the afternoon but she's asleep now. Lepas buka dia tido sampai skarang. tak bangun for her 8pm feeding pun. she'll scream wen she wakes up later..(kelaparan)
Its been awhile since i try html codes..very rusty.. to think abt it since poly days.. need to take out my adobe photoshop cd.. wanna make my own skin..
gizmo darling.. mama loves u lots. pls behave.. dont be cranky tonite kay gems..
listening to:There she goes by Six pence none richer

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hhmmm...3 days since i type an entry... v bz w fathin..
dar not ard today, left for reservist this morning to Pasir Labar.. gonna miss him.. hopefully gizmo dont make a fuss when he's not ard.. gizmo pls behave ok my sweet gem...
gizmo..hehehe we call her dat sometimes... remind us of gremlins..