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I have this playing in my head...
i dont know y ... but it came to me yesterday... hhmm
mayb aft wat happen... I dont noe .. am i scared.. I noe i dont wanna lose u
i noe i wont... 4 years have been tough for both of us... but I do understand wat u meant ... u just wan the other party to b happy..u have nothing against them.. well.. i dont noe...
i dont noe y my head came up w this song....

Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven ?
Would you feel the same
if I saw you in heaven ?
I must be strong and carry on.
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven ?
I'll find my way through night and day.
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven.
Time can bring you down

time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart

have you begging please.

Begging please...

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven ?
Would you feel the same
if I saw you in heaven ?
I must be strong and carry on.
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

conversation

2 nites ago,

gizmo: *tapping on my cheeks* Ma, fathin hidayah wants to watch tv, pls
me: huh? what time is it dear? I know I just slept.*rolling over to see the clock* FATHIN! It's 1.30a.m. Ma baru tido,sayang. go sleep.
gizmo: NO, ma wAtch tv pls.
me: cannot darling, late oready. ma work tomorrow. U also school tomorrow u know.
gizmo: NO! NO! watch tv pls.

Conclusion never argue with a 30 mths old girl when she wants to watch tv.

sometimes later on the couch....

gizmo: ma, wake up! watch tv!
me: Huh? darling u want to watch tv just watch lah....

and then... evrytime i closed my eyes...

gizmo: MA!!! wake up, watch tv!!

SHhhheeesshhhhh.... till 4 am when she finally slept beside me....